Growing up I’ve been watching shows that intrigued me and fueled my imagination from sailor moon to xena ,my very active imagination never faltered. I would occassionally go outside and pretend i was the warrior princess. I even made a paper version of her chakram to throw around however as I got older and learned about cosplay the spark i had seem to fade away.
Entering high school I was introduce to stares,criticism and bullying. I often tried to ignore it yet I can not understand why I was being picked my fellow African-Americans but then I realized it was because I didn’t fit into the box. My mom instilled in me from a very young the importance of education and being and acting like a young lady. My upbringing allowed me from an early age to befriend many people regardless of race,culture or religion. I’m a self-proclaimed nerd/otaku and proud of it.
During my high school years I have heard of cosplay and conventions since I now lived in the state of Georgia (im originally from New Orleans) and I have always wanted to go and dress as my favorite character but was discourage because I was a woman of color. The image of being a nerd,gamer,otaku etc was always a white person and it seemed like there was place for me. Being a black nerd within the black community can be problematic for example while most are watching The Real Housewives of Atlanta i will be busy watch Supernatural or Black Butler. Even taste in music can be a challenged along with talking on an intellectual level which sadly a majority do not have because there are allowing themselves to be formed into a stereotype that does not benefit them. Dating I found is also a problem. So far at 23 years I have never been on a date nor had a boyfriend. I am constantly told by black males that I’m awesome,beautiful and smart yet no ones trying to take me to the movies or a nice dinner.
It seems like being a black female nerd is just hard but I have found several websites and blogs for black people in the geek community. I follow several of them and they are truly an inspiration to me.
I hope to be as awesome as these cool young women.
When I reflect on my life so far I wouldn’t change it. I have become a very strong,smart and beautiful young woman with a passion for Japanese culture,gaming and much more. Hopefully someday I will find someone to share my nerdiness with me but for now I will continue to grow as person and start learning how to sew and decide on whether to cosplay as Grell, Harley Quinn or Daernarys…..choices choices